Key : E
[Intro]
G#m D#m E
[Verse 1]
G#m
Through all of my life
I waver back and forth between
F#
a belief and not
E
Believing in anything
Emaj7 E
In any solid shape
G#m
The unfettered mind
F#
A deeper understanding that holds nothing
Emaj7
That lets sounds come in the ear
G#m
And just pass through without deciding what it was
F#
If it was a jet or a dragon
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It was merely a sound without a name or a picture
It was every possible thing at once
[Verse 2]
G#m
I barely ever get to be in this state
F#
Just quick flashes by surprise
When I'm like standing by a car
Squinting my eyes
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Caught off guard and unpicturesque
G#m
I used to sing this one song all the time
F#
That I made up to try to cut through
When I'd find myself caught up
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Entranced in certainty
D#m
Staring at a hill
And it went:
G#m
"Let's get out of the romance"
Over and over
F#
"Let's get out of the romance"
D#m E
"Please can I go through this life unscared to see that nothing stays the same"
"No one knows anything."
[Verse 3]
G#m
When I was younger and didn't know
F#
I used to walk around basically begging the sky
E
For some calamity to challenge my foundation
When I was young
G#m
So imagine what it was like to watch up close a loved one die
F#
And then look into the pit
I lived on the edge of it
Emaj7 E
And had to stay there
G#m
Joanne Kyger said:
F# B
"We fight incredibly through a hideous mishmash of inheritance
E
Forgiving for deeper stamina
G#m
That we go on
The world always goes on
F# B
Breaking us with its changes
E G#m E
Until our form, exhausted, runs true."
[Verse 4]
G#m
Out of nowhere love returned
F#
I saw what looked like a god who walks among us
I met her, we fell so in love
E
She is angelic, miraculous, I totally lost my mind
G#m D#m
And poured everything into this sea, this ocean
G#m F#
And when I came to I saw my face in a store window's reflection
And there was fear behind those eyes
E G#m
Now I'm back where I was when I was 20
Trying to stop clinging to a dream
F#
And let an old idea of love dissipate
E
Back into formless rolling waves
Of discomfort and uncertainty
G#m
The true state of all things
F#
I want to wade out into dark water
E
Hand in hand with you
G#m
I played this song for you and all you heard were the words
"Discomfort and uncertainty"
F#
You asked "How do we get back to how it was?"
E
And that's when I started to know
G#m
That I might be in it alone
Devoted to an unknown
F#
Homelessness enthroned
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Us and the kids all wind-blown
G#m
Courageous as bone
Lying down in a storm
F#
Steadfast, newborn
E
a house with no door
Exhausted form
G#m
In your eyes I found home
F#
I believed you and dove
E
And oh my god
When we swam together for a little bit